Mum's grief over son with half a face

Published: 2013 February 16 17:30:33 (3752 Views)

Charlene Machin, 33, tells of the moment of terror when she saw her new baby boy who had been born with half of his face missing.

The 33-year-old had given birth to twin boys Oliver and Harry - but doctors discovered baby Harry had been born with a severe facial deformity.

Mrs Machin, from Stoke-on-Trent, recalled how, when her sons were born seven years ago, she kept apologising to husband Mark after hearing the news.

She said: 'I'd only just recovered from giving birth by caesarian to the twins.

'Doctors had whisked Harry straight off after his birth and I hadn't been able to see him.

'The doctor lifted his hand to his own face, and made a sweeping gesture across the left side.

"'It's as though his face has been erased completely," he told me. He has no eye on that side, no ear or nostril.'

'I started crying and kept saying I was sorry to Mark. I felt like it was my fault.
'I saw him the following morning and I was so shocked.

'Half of his face was missing, it just wasn’t there. it was like it had been rubbed out.

'As I cuddled him for the first time, waves of terror swept over me. How could I possibly love this little boy when he looked like this?

'People assume that maternal instinct kicks in as soon as you hold your child for the first time.

'But mine didn’t. I didn’t feel anything, just emptiness. I fixed a smile on my face, but behind the smile, I was in pieces.

'I just couldn’t love my son when he looked like this. Instead I just felt grief - grief for a life that I felt had been taken from me, a normal life that should have been Harry's.'

The Machins had been thrilled when they had found out Charlene was pregnant with twins.

At 32 weeks, Mrs Machin's waters broke and she had to have an emergency caesarian to deliver the boys as Oliver was in a breech position.

The boys were born weighing 3Ib9 each, and they were taken off by doctors to assess them.

It was four hours later when doctors returned and explained to them about Harry's condition.
The baby was transferred to Hope Hospital in Salford, Manchester, where scans ruled out any kidney, spine or heart problems and stayed under medical care before he was allowed home.

Now, seven years later, Mrs Machin has overcome the dread and sadness she felt when she first heard the news about Harry.

Her sons are energetic, adorable and the best of friends - with Oliver fiercely protective of his twin brother.

And she has learned to overcome her initial horror at her son, and accept him for the loveable, brave boy that he is.

'I just went through the motions with him, feeding and changing him. But still I couldn’t feel anything for him.

'And I couldn’t bring myself to take them out in the double buggy.

'The occasional time that I did dare to venture out, the double buggy attracted attention. People came over to ask about the twins, and when they saw Harry, some even ran away screaming.

'It took me a long time to start loving my little boy. It was two years before I finally loved him properly, like I’d always imagined that I would love my children.

'I gradually came to accept what he looked like.

'The turning point came for me when he was 18 months old and I took the twins out to Mothercare shopping.

'As soon as I walked in the store, children came running up to look at the twins, and I felt like the Pied Piper as I walked through the store with them behind me, staring and pointing.

- Daily Mail

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Mum's grief over son with half a face

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